alright, i'm back to post. deleted the past few post. so yahs. many thing has happen ytd and today. i dono wad to say abt it too. jus wanna say something, even if no one belive me, at least you must believe me and trust me. that all. can say this few day many things happen. at least this few thing can let me knw how we overcome the difficulties, or even to see whether our relationship is strong. but, i hope and wishes that this things wont happen again anymore. i dont wish anymore quarrel lerhs. i'm tired and scared of it. but, everythings is fine now. just wanna let you knw that actually, i love you alot. i don wanna this type of things to break our relationship. i don wanna see you sad. i don wanna my eyes full of tear, which are unbearable. i don wish you believe others, but not me. there actually alot of thing i wanna speak to you. but then i dono how to start when i see you. sometime, i just wanna tell you that how much i misses you in the night or how much i love you loads or even how important you are in my heart. i really really feel like telling you. but when i look at you, i become speechless. but, you give me a sense that you love me loads and i feel secure when i'm by ur side. i felt so protected by you. whenever you not around, i feel so lonely and so unsecure. how i wish that you are always by my side taking care of me, giving me a goodnight kiss on my forehead, tapping me to slp in the night, hug me when i feel afraid, and you are the first person i saw when i open my eyes. aint it sweet?