current mood : sad; crying; fcuked up

alright. just had a conflict with my family. seriously, it making me upset and mad. i dono wad to do anyway. wadever i do, you all will still think that i'm just a useless person. a failure or a loser, but did you all ask me what i wanted really? sometimes i wonder, do you all understand me well? whenever i needed support, are you all there? whenever i need encouragment, are you all there to encourage me? yes, i'm just a nobody. but don treat me like a rubbish. all i wanted was a family love and some family support. it really brighten up my days. but, did you all do it, wad you all thinking now, it all my fault. i knw i'm useless. but wad can i do? all i get is nag, discouragment, no support, tears, hurtful words. i tried my best already. but did you all understand all this thing? i tired my best to do it already. wad's more you all wan? i really really dono wad to do. the most hurtful thing is, you said that rasing me up is wasting of time. [bai yang wo]. it hurt me alot. i'm ur daughter you knw? how can you say this? study, money study money. is wad you all are thinking now. wad abt you all ask me wad i really wanna. i plan eveything well. but in the end? all screw up };